…and sometimes that makes me feel like less of a blogger.
I guess technically I attended somewhat of a signing going to BEA this year, and then I went to the Fifty Shades premiere last February, where I got to meet a bunch of my friends and fellow bloggers, but I’ve never really had this urge to want to attend a signing. It’s not that I don’t like my books personalized cause I do, but I think there are a few things that hold me back from making plans to go to all the events.
- I loathe flying
It takes a lot of desire on my part to want to travel when flying is the only mode of transportation. I hate it and I know I’m not the only one. Because both the events that I mentioned above have required flying I have gotten better about it, but still it gives me the worst anxiety. There has to be more of a draw than getting my books signed for me to want to fly to an event.
- Social Anxiety
Now, I hate to use that as a crutch or as an excuse but I’m a pretty reserved person and that in turn leaves me feeling awkward. Like what do I say? Oh, hey —– I loved your book! I don’t know. I just hate feeling put on the spot and I’m such a dork and I get so tongue tied and nervous that I feel like I would dread meeting my favorite authors instead of looking forward to it.
- Fear of it affecting future reviews
One of the biggest reasons I have distanced myself from getting chummy with authors in the community is because of that inevitable reality of reading something of theirs I dislike and having to leave an honest review. So many of my blogger pals have successful friendships with authors without it affecting their reviews and I applaud them for not letting it alter their role as a reviewer, but I know it’s a situation that I personally don’t want to put myself in. I’m not the biggest fan of leaving negative reviews but I also think it’s my right as a reviewer to have an opinion and to be honest about it, regardless if it’s good or bad. Because of that, I fear that I may be less biased if I was reviewing an author that I really liked and in turn my blog would suffer.
But there are a few reasons I would be more excited to attend a signing…
- Meeting friends/bloggers
My favorite part of being in this community is the friendships I have made. There are so many people that I talk to on a daily basis that I would love to actually meet in person and spend one on one time with.
- I really do want to travel (despite my fear of flying!)
If everything works out I will hopefully be attending RT 2017 in Atlanta and I cannot be more excited. I’ve specifically wanted to travel to Atlanta for awhile so this is the perfect opportunity to do that as well as connect with others in the book community.
I’ve been blogging since January of 2013 and I really thought that my reluctance to attend signings was mostly due to my fear of flying but I’m just wondering if just not my gig. I don’t think there’s anything necessarily wrong with me not having the desire to attend such events but it does make me feel a little like an outcast.
Have you ever attended a signing? If not, what has prevented you from attending? Do you feel as a book lover/blogger it is necessary to attend them?