Published by Harlequin HQN
Publication Date: August 25th, 2015
Genres: Contemporary Romance, Chick Lit
I received this book for free from in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.
Sisterhood in all its drama, hilarity and tears is at the heart of New York Times bestselling author Kristan Higgins's thoroughly captivating new novel, featuring the wit and romance that readers have come to expect from the much-loved creator of the Blue Heron series...
Wedding-dress designer Jenny Tate understands the happily-ever-after business, yet somehow she's still involved in her ex-husband's life. In fact, Owen's new wife may—inexplicably—be Jenny's new best friend. Sensing this, well, relationship isn't helping her move on, Jenny trades the Manhattan skyline for her hometown up the Hudson, where she'll be able to bask in her sister Rachel's picture-perfect family life…and hopefully make one of her own.
Her timing couldn't be more perfect, since Rachel will need her younger sister. Her idyllic marriage has just fallen to pieces in spectacular fashion after she discovers her husband sexting with one of his colleagues. Second chances aren't in Rachel's nature, but the desire for an intact family has her rethinking her stance on adultery, much to Jenny's surprise. Rachel points to their parents' "perfect" marriage as a shining example, but to protect her sister Jenny may have to tarnish that memory—and their relationship—and reveal a secret about their family she's been keeping since childhood.
During this summer of secrets and lies, temptation and revelation, Jenny and Rachel will rely on each other to find the humor in their personal catastrophes, the joy in their triumphs…and the strength to keep hanging on.
“Love is a decision. It’s not just a feeling.”
You know, I am not a sensitive reader. I mean I’m sensitive in the fact of I will more than likely cry when a book makes me sad/happy/angry. But I’m not a sensitive reader in the sense that I shy away from sensitive topics. In fact, I usually pick out books that deal with certain subjects because I like the pain. Little did I know that If You Only Knew would haunt me for weeks. This is one of those stories that just hit me in all my feels and refused to let me go.
“I never knew I had hate like this in me, and it horrifies me, a consuming monster that leaps and claws at the love I had for him, and for us.”
I have read many books that feature View Spoiler »infidelity « Hide Spoilerbut there was something so painful about View Spoiler »Rachel discovering that her husband, Adam, has been having an affair with someone at his work « Hide Spoiler that it took me a few weeks to find the courage and the strength to talk about it. I am honestly not that sensitive to this subject but when that moment where certain truths came to light, I felt gutted. I attribute this to how fast I fell for Rachel and her girls. Her love for her life and her family was so transparent that it would take someone with a heart of stone to not feel ruined by her experience. Thankfully the heaviness of this book is balanced with Rachel’s sister Jenny and her bizarre relationship with her ex husband and new wife. I mean Jenny broke my heart at times too, but it was nice to have a reprieve from Rachel’s nightmare.
“I hope I’m running to something, not away.”
I really did love this book. I wasn’t expecting to feel so strongly though and that caught me off-guard. When I finished reading it was about 2am and I had a nice pile of Kleenex from all of my crying. It really is one of those stories that stayed with me. The only reason I am not rating it a 5 (despite how much I loved it) was because despite the balance between Rachel and Jenny’s story, and Jenny’s romance with the delightfully swoony and heartbreaking Leo, I sometimes felt that Rachel’s half of this story overshadowed everything. That isn’t a bad thing but I felt that I was always wanting to skip ahead to Rachel’s chapters when I was reading Jenny’s. I honestly couldn’t recommend this story enough. I know that Kristan Higgins has just become one of those auto-buy authors for me and I’m excited to read more of her past/present stories!